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Literal Tears

Mid afternoon I took a nap. It was a very good nap. Do you ever get caught in the in-between state of being awake and still dreaming? I was anxious to hear YHWH again and when I found myself in that moment I was begging for a word. I could hear the construction going on outside, a familiar noise living in a burned down town, sunken in comfortably surrounded by my décor pillows, and then the vibe started to hum. My ears felt interconnected like they were one and I could feel my hand reaching up like I could grab his hand. It was like being on molly where it tingles to hum and you feel the energy just swirling inside, a higher frequency. My alarm went off, no word, no hand, just a tease. Felt awesome just the same being sober and vibin!


Later that evening, I committed to something I wasn’t really aware of what the full scope of the experience would be. If you’ve read How Did This Book Find Me then you know I feel a pull, a call maybe, or just an adventure seeking me to cultivate the land in some way. So when a reunited high school acquaintance turned friendship invited me to a Purium event, I felt like it was the opportunity I was looking for. I’m going to be a farmer! Nope, Purium is a Network Marketed health product mostly grown out of Utah.


Okay, so I’m not going to be a farmer with Purium, but I am committed to the event and I’m still intrigued. I want to be healthy and my friend just lost twenty pounds this month doing their cleanse. I could use a cleanse, right? Funny enough, as I was writing the previous post and looking for a verse in the wrong book, highlighted on the 8th of September in Colossians, it caught my eye like a trance - Col 2:8 “Be careful that no one takes you captive through philosophy and empty deceit based on human tradition, based on the elements of the world, rather than Christ.”


That’s weird? I go to the meeting with my guard up, I think my friends could tell. However, I’m raised in Sales and I’ve been a part of two different direct to sales businesses selling beauty products so I know this scene very well. I introduce myself, offer to help set up, taste the products - really good actually - and get to hear first hand accounts of how this product changed their lives. I don’t discount anyone’s testimony from underdog to success no matter what the scene is. There’s eight billion people in the world and what works for me may or may not work for you. It’s the way of the world.


The presentation was energetic, the people were very kind, and I am in the market for a cleanse while I learn how to plant some veggies. I stay after to talk to a few people, at this point my skepticism is showing. ‘Have you researched these products? Read reviews? What are the ingredients?’ These are new questions for me these days. I don’t know at what point in adulthood I just gave up and took the spoon full of whatever and went on with my trendy life but Not today! I’m curiouser and curiouser and yet, Col 2:8…


I was invited to stay for a sound circle after those conversations. What’s a what? A woman I met there sings the “sacred music” she says and it’s a meditation practice. Having been meditating recently with Yeshua, I’m intrigued to listen. This woman had the most beautiful voice, her story was even more interesting how she grew up singing and then dedicated herself to a practice in India to elevate her sound. The energy was relaxing.


What really intrigued me was how comfortable these individuals were humming in a circle. All of them can actually sit cross-legged and breathe, I'm overweight so this position can be a challenge. I've been praying as I meditate at home to have God teach me how to help with my flexibility, my posture, my breathing, I want to learn how to sing, all these things. This marketing meeting is turning into something different altogether. The vowels the woman was singing sounded very Greek, I’ve been learning Greek for the last couple of weeks and although she explains it’s Indian, they sound very similar.


The meeting was held at a studio where the owner works with traumatized females to find flexibility and connect with their alignment. Ok. I'm invited to another vocal circle. Ok. I’m invited to another session to work on breathing. Ok. Then I'm invited to a Yoga class focused on both breathing and flexibility. Ok. So are my prayers being answered or do I discern from the elements of the world?


Either way, the whole experience was wonderful. I break down in literal tears opening up to women about how my spiritual element, for the forever record my spiritual element is Jesus Christ, has been missing due to my own neglect. I didn’t take care of myself, I drowned out his love with our culture's noise, and built walls higher than Jericho. Literal. Tears.

I was met with hugs, love, and understanding. Not a single person judged me for my sound circle cherry popping, for giving it all to Jesus despite he's not the common belief, and breaking down uncontrollably because I’ve been too scared to explore the "hums" with others. I am a spiritual being in love with Jesus Christ! Why do they have to be separated?


Listen, I’m learning a lot about God, Jesus, the Bible, the overall energy of this world. I believe that he is the downloader of all these thoughts and ideas and practices, but I think the discernment of the philosophy is just that they don’t give him the credit, "Rather than Christ". He’s a jealous guy.


I was already humming away that very afternoon to connect with God without the influence of others so could it be that the discernment is that until you get the internal influence of the holy spirit to just be aware of the external influences? The whole time we were in the sound circle, I called his name within. He never leaves us and he loves all he created. Vibin with Jesus, I love it!


I think he brought me there for a reason. I can’t be shaken from my faith in Jesus Christ, but that doesn’t mean there won’t be tests. I am completely his in every way so I believe he’s answering my prayers and strengthening my discernment as I learn where all this influence came to be and how they got so far disconnected from the true source. Thank you YHWH for expanding my horizons while never losing sight of your horizon. I love you!


Another question to identify within, why are Christians so uptight about other cultures philosophies? If you believe he is your savior, then don't doubt his infinite possibilities... right? I started to sweat when the sound circle started because I was raised to believe it's witchcraft. Hardly! Even if it was, no witch can take me away from my God. That would be doubt. I have zero doubt that my Lord is Jesus Christ, my holy spirit.


What can I say, I'm a hummer for the Lord!


Written on 9/25/21



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