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“One Confused Cookie”

Updated: Mar 17, 2023

Began Writing on 10/04/21

I begin to wonder as I study this world and the energy of it… how we can somehow reverse it? I’m not talking about regressing people, I love modern day menstrual solutions, but can we find the origin of today's conflict? I bet it all started with a Word. “She called me fat!” “I ain’t no liar!” “That’s so gay.” “Millennials are entitled.” “They're hostile people.”

How many hurtful words have we played victim to? I was teased growing up and called fat, I battled with my weight my whole life even when I had practice up tp five hours a day. I was labeled entitled and boy, did I snuggle right into that one. Single. I’ve never felt loneliness so cold before that it became a slogan to my own demise and this light was almost snuffed out.

Our words have meaning. The very thoughts we have in our minds are as delicate as flowers. Too much water we drown, not enough we dry out, too much soil we choke, not enough we become stinted, when touched we break, when smelled we tickle, and our swings are not like the seasons? This season is running into overtime.

My point being is that if you’re told from birth that your generation sucks and you're selfish and entitled, why are so many shocked by the youth’s display of disrespect? Wouldn’t the same go for a group or a religion of people who are labeled “hostile” all because of a translation of the Hebrew word “against”? In sales we’re taught chocolate words and trigger words and after reading the Gospels, even Yeshua knew his name was a trigger word that’s why I think he repeats to all those who he’s healed to be quiet. It’s a delicate thing for this flower of ours.

If for centuries, you’re called a strong word for your skin color, do you not use it when you become a pop star? If you believe you’re oppressed, then are you? Or is it false evidence appearing real due to someone's judgment of you? Is it easier to say you’re oppressed because you don’t have a boat? Or are you literally just oppressed due to the enormous blanket of ignorance? (I wonder where your mind is going? These are all questions I’m asking for myself.)

Is it about time someone steps up to say I’m sorry that my words, our words, the printed words, the perpetuated words, the repetitive words, the complete lack of censorship between what is good and truth words, the unnecessary words, the left out words, the deafening words, the pity words, the crucial words, the under my breath words, the gossip words, the false words, the ignorant words, the hate words, and the over-opinionated words…

I am sorry that the words hurt us.

Words can physically hurt us and yet we lie to ourselves saying that they don’t. Sticks and Stones, but words cause havoc and wars. The wolf and lamb will feed together. Under the definition of wolf you’ll see Dissonance of unequal temperament dissonance meaning tension or clash of sounds resulting in consistent conflict that require a resolution.

I am one confused cookie growing up in a world where the teachings of Jesus Christ are taught to fit an agenda and oftentimes forgotten when it comes to our “WORDS”. Who is writing the teleprompter Ron?! Love over Pharisees, no? News isn’t about your opinion or your flare for dramatics, it’s about the facts. That’s it. Since when did it become imperative to have news in the form of entertainment? Is it ads or wallets corrupting our ears? The Wilderness 2020

I can choose what comes out of my mouth, but I have less in the way of what I hear in this world thanks to sound waves and frequencies. The energy of this world as explained in the operator's manual, the Bible, Genesis: Each story written to tell you that words have meaning in the way of how history was played out. Serpent. Flood. Abraham. Ishmael. Isaac. Esau. Jacob. Rebekah. Joseph. Confusion. Their story is told in the way of one quote, one word, one thought, that wrote our literal history to this day.


Are we able to hold accountable our tongues, our lyrics, our opinions, our scripts, our doubts, our fears, our gossip, our flares for the dramatics, our anxieties, our depression, our hate, our anger for the sake of our neighbors ears because is that what ultimately boils down to loving your neighbor as yourself?

I’m not saying to be silent we’ve come too far for that, but a time and a place, a professional or confessional, choice words. Did you know that variations of the word “endure” is mentioned 99 times, one for every sheep unattended to gather the stray?” Do not be Afraid” is mentioned 365 times, one for every day of the year, and yet the word Crowd is mentioned 106 times, why so many on the word crowd? Because the Lord was trying to warn people of the amount of ears around?

Proverbs 19:25 led me to the year 1925 when the television was invented, radio broadcast initiated, and soliciting began. Ninety-six years old and what do we have to show for it? Consumerism? To circulate our negative thoughts on platforms projected to the globe… could that be the root of all our problems and if so what are we going to do about it?

Compassion, Gentleness, Kindness, HUMILITY, Patience, Forgiveness, and Love. Above all, Love. - Colossians 3:12-14

What would the news be like if they followed seven simple guidelines? Pop music? TV shows? Courtrooms? Classrooms? Office Space? Are you getting the memo? I already know that one answer would be boring, that the other would be peaceful, and is anyone tired of sitting stagnant? I myself am not just willing, I’m thriving at the opportunity to hand over boredom for peace on earth, amen?!

Compassion to listen without interruption saves more lives than any theatrical experience could. Gentleness in the way of hugs saves more lives than any vaccine ever manufactured. Kindness saves more lives over any angered, disgruntled, bad cut off day ever could and you have a choice in every moment of every second to choose kindness. Humility saves more lives over any political stance taken. Patience saves more lives than any channel broadcasted. And Love. Love moves mountains. Love is what heals our very land that we walk on. Love saves every life that ever lived.

1 Corinthians 13:4-8

4 Love is patient, love is kind. Love does not envy, is not boastful, is not arrogant, 5 is not rude, is not self-seeking, is not irritable, and does not keep a record of wrongs. 6 Love finds no joy in unrighteousness but rejoices in the truth. 7 It bears all things, believes all things, hopes all things, endures all things.

8 Love never ends.

It starts with one. It starts with you. It starts with one prayer.

Don’t overthink it. That would be an unequal temperament.


This post is dedicated to Irene Barton who passed away earlier today on 3/17/23. She was a pivotal player in my journey and you can find her in many of my posts since her beautiful (Hebrew: perfect timing) seeds were literal lifelines. She's in...

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Zbogom bako, volimo te!

(Goodbye Grandma, we love you!)

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